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"Death is but another great adventure…"
-Albus Percival Wulfric Brian Dumbledore

How does it feel when someone really close to your heart passes away?

Hayun, it happened to me again…

A dear friend of mine, someone who i used to jam with, someone who used to scold me when i skipped meals, someone who always prayed for me and constantly reminded me how astig I am, how he missed the way I banged the drumset in the band room, and how the sound echoed and lingered…

I would play the drums, he would play either the bass or the guitars… Then we would switch places…

Ang sarap alalahanin, but now all of these are memories… Last month nakita ko pa siya, when I went to UNP… He would always refer to me as "Kapatid ko…"

Plinaplano niyang bumili ng iPod nun and he even consulted me about it, para raw makakapa siya ng mas madali… Jina-jam namin lahat ng songs na alam namin. Ang huling na-jam namin was "First Of Summer" by Urbandub… May isang taon ko na rin siguro siyang kilala…

Lagi kaming magkasama nun sa bandroom…

Ang naging trademark namin together was tee-na-pay… I don’t know how it started, he was the one who still has the perfect recall on how Tee-Na-Pay came to be…

Lagi niya akong sinasabihang kumain ako… Short lang yung pagkakataong nagkasama kami kasi I stopped schooling. We rarely had the opportunity to talk and see each other, pero pag nakikita niya ako, ayun, there we’d go again na parang magkapatid talaga.

I just confirmed the sad news today, andito ako sa computer shop and i was crying, mabuti nalang at andito si Roalf to comfort me… The songs being played in here were even somehow connected to the situation, it reminded me of him… and death…

I received a text message yesterday morning from an anonymous number. It  stated the date of interment… I thought this was just another small joke they used to play on me… It was his brother/sister pala… They told me he actually died and was stabbed in Manila last December 25. What was he doing there?! Perhaps he was meeting his girlfriend. Baka nga hinold-up siya, baka inagaw yung iPod niya or what… I’m getting so paranoid… Galit ako!!! Hindi pa rin ako naniwala kasi i was hoping that he would text me and say "joke lang!"… I waited, and waited… But there was no message from him…

Dati, happy ako pagbalik ko next year sa UNP kasi I know they (including kuya Glen) would be waiting for me there. Pero ngayon, things will never be the same again. He’s gone forever. And I know tears would only stream down my cheeks everytime I enter that room where we used to jam…

Let me quote the text message I received from him before, kakaiba nga yung naramdaman ko that time eh, it was as if something was wrong and something really bothers him…

"Lord, huwag po ninyong pababayaan ang kapatid ko, nasaan man siya ngayon, gabayan niyo siya… Paalalahanan Niyo po siya na kumain parati. Andito lang ako na kapatid niya…"

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